2.21.2010

one hundred. eighteen.

in real life, i associate a face with a name.
i see a short, scruffy neighbor with glasses and search my brain for his name....
gary!

at work, it goes a bit differently. i associate a face with a drink and then a name.
clean shaven, dark haired, chai latte rick.
tiny lady, energetic, super sweet vanilla latte nikki.
geeky with glasses & some sort of striped shirt, keeps-you-guessing-but-maybe-a-tea chris.
big ears older man with friendly smile, skim mocha granita ray.

that's just how it goes. then when in conversation with people outside of work, i refer to them as their name & drink.
"yeah, rick the chai latte guy jammed with rick somebody from cheap trick."

it's just a different world.
we got a bunch of new teas in and my life is heaven. one fruit tea called cloud catcher makes THE MOST AMAZING iced tea, i kid you not. in a close second is our new south sea magic black tea, with some mango or something in it. yum yum. :]]

Just finished our first weekend of Cinderella. The show is so fun, I am thoroughly entertained every time I watch it. Things have definitely slacked off on the to-do list and I definitely haven't been eating as well [i.e. i just scarfed down 4 ferrero rocher's.]. Something to work on next week. Lauren Mansoonie & I have decided to run a 5k in May, so I need to get on the ball training for that. I'm so excited and also quite intimidated. I ran the other day [very seriously minded] and realized I have quite a lot of work ahead of me.

i'm off to eat some FANTASTIC [whole grain] pasta that my sister just made. be jealous.

2.02.2010

one hundred.seventeen.

My boss tells me I'm awkward, specifically the most awkward person.
Eric, my fish side boss tells me I'm a lot loony.
Fernando [Furry], the cook on the fish side tells me I'm a little loco.

WHAT IS THIS.

Suddenly the entire world decided to fill me in on the fact that apparently I'm kind of a strange bird. Good to know.

I'm just going to convince myself that there is actually a compliment lying somewhere underneath the surface of scoffing and run with that.

[p.s. 3 posts in 2 days?! feeling a bit like a lame-o. cutting back.]

2.01.2010

one hundred.sixteen.

just read through much of my old xanga & flipped through several friends old xangas.
really quite bittersweet.
at times a bit heavy on the bitter
or the sweet
[but even in the sweet, it's bitter.]
so much is different.
not bad different.
& i musn't forget that everything has brought me here.
but it's a very surreal feeling.
those were honest entries from all of us.
at times more vulnerable than i think i intended.
i used to think i was so cryptic and & sneaky
but you understood every word.

ugh. digging up the past can be so wonderful
& so very strange.

one hundred.fifteen.

i just finished a book on new atheism.
i actually wasn't aware there was such a thing as new atheism, but apparently there is. it was fascinating to learn about.
i took a victorian literature class a few years ago [one of my favorite classes] and it discussed the unsteadiness of man after science began to break down theological presuppositions. there was a sense of anxiety as technology progressed and traditions and beliefs were no longer needed/wanted. there was a sense of loss that was exemplified in some of the literature from that period, like "Dover Beach." I love the last part:

The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth’s shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.

Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

this poem was also brought up in the book as an illustration of how differently new atheism presents itself. back then it was almost mourning, and now the release from God is seen as a celebration. do away with old beliefs and religion that is holding humanity back and then celebrate true freedom.
very intriguing read.
[i always forget how to spell intriguing.]

kanoa is laying here next to me taking a nap.
i wish i was taking a nap.

over the weekend i went to a show at the metro, which was fantastic.
all of the people you see on the street and think
"that person looks neat/interesting/unusual/charming"
they were all there too.

ho hum. worked at the coffee shop today & again tomorrow.
did i mention that i love working at the coffee shop?
truly, it's nice.