one hundred.sixteen.

just read through much of my old xanga & flipped through several friends old xangas.

really quite bittersweet.

at times a bit heavy on the bitter

or the sweet

[but even in the sweet, it's bitter.]

so much is different.

not bad different.

& i musn't forget that everything has brought me here.

but it's a very surreal feeling.

those were honest entries from all of us.

at times more vulnerable than i think i intended.

i used to think i was so cryptic and & sneaky

but you understood every word.

ugh. digging up the past can be so wonderful

& so very strange.