one hundred. fourteen.

Last week my boss told me that I was the most awkward person he had ever met.
thanks boss.
[however, I can kind of understand why he would say that.]
my boss also told me that i could be a really good stand-up comedian.
apparently that's a profitable profession for awkward people.
under one condition:
i have to be smutty & dirty. that's what sells.
and that's what would be the most hilarious
to see an awkward person telling dirty jokes.
thanks boss.

took a jog today with the doggy. it's nice because she pulls me along when i'm slacking. my dog is lazy & fat but she still runs better than i do. it's nice running in winter, so nice. i bundle up but my body still doesn't overheat like it does in the summer. running in the summer = the worst. i feel so fresh running in the winter & also a little hardcore. it seems to me that only hardcore runners get out in the winter, so i appear to be giving off the perception of a hardcore runner. i'm fine with that perception.
however, hardcore runners probably don't need to get dragged around by their dog....

http://papernstitch.com/product/twig-ring
i want one.

cherry chocolate pecan biscotti tonight. i'm going to make some. i have such a craving.

As Valentines Day approaches, some people who come into the coffee shop feel the need to share their love stories.
Doug loves Diane.
Roger hates Ronda.
all so sweet and dramatic.
Doug, kind of a flavored, skim latte kind of a guy, tells us all about his beautiful Diane and was shocked when we said that we actually knew her, she was a frequent scone buyer and also loved pumpkin spice lattes.
Doug was skeptical at first, but then knew it had to be her at the mention of pumpkin spice lattes.
His Diana goes crazy for those.
He then told us that we weren't supposed to know they were dating because they work together.
We vowed to keep it a secret.
So don't tell.

one hundred. thirteen.

When my dog sheds it is not a usual affair - a few stray hairs make their way onto furniture and somehow into a bowl of oatmeal.
No.
Clumps of hair float to the floor when you pet her, completely COAT anything you wear and all furniture, end up in most food and on your pillow so you breath it in and choke when you are trying to fall to sleep.
How she is not bald I'll never know.
This is fairly similar to myself, actually.
I don't have season where I shed more hair, I am always shedding and wondering how any hair is left on my head.
Close friends and family have taken to standing behind me and picking at the hair that sticks to my back like those helpful monkeys you always see at the zoo.

for the rest:
[me, with a head full of words & not one useful expression]

one hundred. twelve.

while searching "tea and whimsy" i found ANOTHER BLOG titled "tea and whimsy."
that blog has something to do with country weddings.
anyhow. i found that interesting.
[sometimes i feel that i fill my blog with completely useless information, such as this.]

a car accident has a funny way of sneaking large amounts of money out of your pockets. that and every payment comes at once: insurance, phone bill, insurance, buy a car... i'll be lucky if i have $30 left in my account at the end of the month.

my current outlook on life goes something like this:
today - worked. got home. took a look at my finances. fell into state of mild depression [only slight sarcasm]. instead of then using time wisely to make myself feel better i stalked random people on facebook that i hardly know/never see anymore, looked up uninteresting videos, made $15 impulse purchase on itunes with christmas gift cards, pretended to work out for 20 minutes [lame crunches, schlump over feet in half-hearted stretch, repeat] and then ate massive plate of leftover spaghetti with two cookies. talked to fellow on telephone [good! but also lame because i miss his face], vowed to go to bed at 10:00 and yet here i am.

of course, nothing is really all that bad.
quick fix for life:
wake up earlier.
delete facebook [con - won't stay in contact as well with friends. pro - will find ways to contact real friends. putting this idea on the back burner.]
shed useless spending, i.e. things i believe that i am entitled to such as danishes, expensive bottled tea and yet another new scarf.
make all of my own clothes.
find edible plants to sustain me.
stop making blog posts and instead make interesting, profound and witty journal entries that i will one day publish and then make millions off of.

it's all so simple.
starting now.
goodnight.

p.s. also, a side note: should i maybe start using correct grammar/capital letters? putting this idea on the back burner...

one hundred. eleven.

i enjoy: sitting on the floor in the room, eating nutella out of the jar with my fingers and listening to records.

i have many crochet/knit dream projects that i need to finish.

i have to work out. this is nothing new.

tai and i are watching "an american in paris." excellent.

i got in a car accident this last thursday & would be quite content if that never happened again. airbags = pretty frightening phenomenon. it could have been a lot worse, although i did completely total patrick, our beloved toyota.

on a car search. it's going alright, thanks to help from the fellow. in the meantime it's going to be fun arranging who gets the car for school/work/extra events. jolly.

a week in florida was an excellent time. i came back feeling strangely more growed up. why is that?

i did get a chance to do some great reading. read forest gump: turns out it wasn't as great as the movie [in my opinion]. shocking. usually the book is so much better! i won't spoil it for you, but the ending is completely different. also read "the boy who loved windows" which is an EXCELLENT book that my sister suggested. It's the story of an autistic child, but it spoke largely on so many other issues. such a fascinating read, i could read it over and over. i also started and am about halfway through "to kill a mockingbird." how i made it so far without reading this book is beyond me, but so far so good.

gene kelly is such a superstar.

still working on Cinderella. sometimes i forgot how much i really do enjoy working with the kids on the weekends. this director, Kerry, is so great at stepping outside of herself at rehearsals and being just so much fun for the kids, completely devoting time and energy into making sure their experience is just as important as the eventual outcome of the show. It's a very selfless way to work with kids. It could be so easy to just not engage and do what you need to do then leave, but she encourages her team & the cast so much, i wonder how she has so much energy.

my fingers are itching to crochet.

one hundred.ten.

I thought it appropriate to make post one hundred ten on the first day of twenty ten.

110

2010

note the similarities. they both end with ten.

I completely forgot about making New Years Resolutions. How necessary are they? I made some, of sorts, but unintentionally and not specifically filed under New Years Resolutions.

Maybe it's better that way.

New Years Resolutions tend to dictate what my year should look like and inevitably it falls through, and then what?

resolutions, however are less weighted and more permanent. it's not the resolution of 2010, it's the realization of the need for change.

right?

However

if I were to make a resolution of 2010

it would be to drink more water.

Everywhere I go, everything I learn

water seems to be the source for health, happiness and well-being.

Florida tomorrow.

Joyyy!!