nine

long days and nights.
tonight you can paint me melancholy, i think.
just kidding, i just checked that on dictionary.com
"a gloomy state of mind"

so. not gloomy.
the more i turn it over in my mind,
i find really dislike that word.
nothing near gloomy.
but not an antonym of either.
somewhere in the middle.
somewhere around tired.
weary. weary of mind.

i worry for you.
too much.
"you" encompasses more than just you, in fact.
"you" is a lot.
in fact, there's probably a lot of you who would never think that you would be part of that group.
but i can't help it.
i see you.
i worry for you.

working sound for the show is interesting.
there's a lot that i see and hear.
at times, amusing.
often, encouraging.
other times, disappointing.
so many wonderful people

[blindblindblind.
but aren't we all?
those things...]

my feet are cold.
i need to regain some hope.
honesty: sometimes i really let things get to me.
so. i shall try to not let things get to me.
finals are coming up soon, unbelievably soon.
projects start just around the corner.
can you believe it?
things have flown by.

i feel a lot steadier, after this semester, of what i want to pursue.
slowly, i'm feeling more sure of my footing.
it's fantastic!

how are you?

-christina