sixty.three.

beware the jabberwock.

i feel a little askew, she said.
what? why would she say that?
shhheeee

does not

know.

thursday: why was thursday such a great day?
i don't know.
i know the sunset was beautiful.
i almost crashed my car trying to get a good glimpse. thinking back, i should have just pulled over.
why didn't i just pull over?
i was driving and listening to the new music for winter by jadiid/the hudson branch. that was a good drive.
it's funny how the sunsets look cold in the winter. don't they? i think so.

i'm rereading the emily of new moon books. those books used to captivate me.
it's funny, because reading them again, i see some odd connection between "the flash" that emily experiences, and moments that c.s. lewis talks about in his book "surprised by joy."
both of these moments are sort of rooted in some mystical, mysterious sense.
i think it's fascinating.
confession: the emily books still sort of captivate me. i could [or should] be reading something much better. i haven't read a BOOK book in a while because of school. mostly i just flipped through things.
but now that i finally have time to sit down
and just
READ.
now i pick up emily of new moon.
by l.m. montgomery.
what a great book, though, to waste my time on.

i'm going to florida soon. :]]

anyhow, so thursday was a fantastic day, and i haven't felt so contented and blissful in a long while. i'm not really sure what spurred this.
perhaps partly because i had a fantastic talk with my papa on wednesday night till pretty late.
i can't even remember everything, but i just got into the car to drive home and was so full of....
something?
something wonderful and grand.
nowhere near jolly, or happy. nothing quite so base.
something content and peaceful and grateful.
like those three. stirred up.
also, it could have been spurred on because it was the first day that school was over.
now that it's over, i can look back and see that sometimes it a little rough to have to defend myself.
i dislike that a little.
i'm growing too used to it.

anyhow, it is late.
i should be off.

p.s. can we try and arrange it?
p.s.s. just checked my calender. december 21st officially two minutes ago! first day of winter. :]]